hey bebs part 2!

i know.. see im just making up for the fact that i NEVER write.. plus im sitting on my bum at home..

first off RYAN URE SO cUTEEE - best movie ever! haha i knew what it was the second i saw the package's shape.. iw as like OMG- haha i cant believe it came out on the 13th.. its like perfect lol i havent had time for a good chickflick night though.. ill let u know when

alright.. i cried a couple minutes ago.. not a bad cry but i was making a birthday card.. and then ir ealized holy poopers i might not even be arond next  year for these birthdays.. esp not birthdays of hc girls.. and then i started to cry.. lol brit thinks its normal because she's as much of a basketcase as me.. but oh my god.. its so silly but everytime i think about leaving it makes me so sad... its not because of hc the school but the people.. i mean u grow up just seeing people's faces .. people u know.. and then u just leave all that.. and its so hard to keep in touch.. sometimes someone randomly pops into ur mind .. but next year u wont even be there to see them..

U KNOW WHAT I MEAN? u people know how pathetically attached i get to people and places.. now imagine ripping me out and away from some of these girls ive known my entire life.. since i was 3 years old..  a little somehting called culture shock.. its not like im incredibly sheltered or anythign like that.. (i dont think) i know what's out there.. but i cant imagine going to school without these girls around me.. without the stupid green and gold that manifests inside me.. and in my room.. (I SWEAR I DIDNT KNOW!!) i dont know how ill get through the final speech.. ill start bawling.. and survivor prayers damn man..

i dont want to grow up i want to be a kid forever... its fun and i dont want to leave it behind... we all get stressed but we have it pretty good.. just live in the moment girls.. enjoy it while it lasts..

i heart u

xox

IM SO FREAKING HUNGRY

hey bebs!  i dont know why im procrastinating.. i really should get on my work.. and i will do that asap i promise.. i loved janices weblog so go read it.. i started to tell my life story in the msg i was leaving on her page so i decided to write my own

i need to cut my nails theyre too long and its annoying to type.. it severely hinders my efficiency.. maybe thats why it took me so long to write a simple bio essay answer thingy

anyways plan to get in shape is not working out so well.. its a little something called lack of time.. honestly i actually HAVE NO TIME.. except the time i spend with chad.. but that time is precious to me.. u cant strip me away from him "I DONT WANNA BEEE ANYTHING OTHER THAN WHAT I BEEN TRYIN TO BE LATELYYY!!" and knowing me i got the words all wrong.. eh heh sorry

i havent been on msn that much these past few days.. partly because ive been in boarding.. i love it its so convenient!! especailyl when i have to stay late at school.

I WANT A MASSAGE right now.. i ve wanted one so badly for so long

i dont know if i have anything deep to share like janice did.. its okay janice i was a baby boy too.. and i still love my boy days like... right now haha whoa thats weird remember that picture that i LOVE of u.. with u and ur dress and you're pulling it to the side.. OH MY GOD cuuuute!im so excited for survivor prayers arent u going to be sad to leave? im goign to be SO sad.. seriously the first day of school was traumatic i was getting.. DEPRESSED!!

not to worry though everything will work out great.. i think..

i cant wait till christmas.. but i dont wnat it to come. omg im such a menopausal woman.. im so fickle.. and these DAMN HOT FLASHES haha jks.. i dont think people get my sense of humour.. oh well u guys dont have to be my friend then

i drove home today.. it ws okay i didnt kill anyone

cheesecake at lunch was divine

back to me and my a d d .. i know that i have

i think i also have mono because my glands ARE swollen and ive been having a soar throat for 2 weeks.. buttt its okay i think im living and apparently quarantine's only 2 weeks

i wish u were going to cancun everybody!! im so worried it wnot be fun.. but then i know it will be.. but.. u know

omg im going to cry because im goign to miss u all so much

and omg i have to get my bum back into shape

and omg i really have to work (ohh its mr gaouettes parallel structure) he drove into the parking lot today and waved at me.. i was so happy! he s so cuteee! hehe (old man cute people dont get me wrong)

okay.. so if i have to be deep like janice was...

love each other or perish (READ TUESDAYS WITH MORRIE SUCH A GOOD BOOK I LOVE IT SO MUCH=made my cry)

I CANNOT WAIT FOR HARRY POTTTTTERRRRR

love ya!

vicky xoxox

hii.. i dont know what mood im in.. i think im going to start boarding soon (hopefully) i got told i was stupid yesterday,.. and then yelled at because i was tired.. and yelled at some more because i sit through data drawing in my agenda.. i also started writing a letter but i dont think that person likes me very much write now soo i think ill just not send it lol

hmmm im tired of deadlines.. ive calmed down about the not school issues.. i basically cried last night from 8-9 got woken up at 5 30 to study and cried some more as i walked to second up to meet up with.. ali g! but not big tears just kinda whimpy im freaking out of mind scared ones...

i duno this whole thing at lees seems silly to me.. ya that person shouldnt have told.. they were trusted and they have a freaking big mouth.. but i guess everyone should relax a lil.. hey 2 weeks of fitness can do wonders for u... and to be honest i probably wouldve gotten in trouble too.. but ill just stay out of it... I have too much on my plate right now to handle.. hi friends who i never see anymore! honest to god i sat on my ass from friday night to sunday night at my desk.. i dont know if im allowed to say god and swear in the same sentence lol..

okay im done debriefing.. i actually really liek school this year.. and oh yah im tired of giving up my entire life towards one deed and oh yeah i am so confused about playing.. im giving up in a years time anyways.. whats the point of training hardcore for another? w/evs i guess ill figure it out.. its grad year and i intend to take full advantage of that

bye bye friends who i never see anymore.. i miss u

-v L xox

hey kids

im boredd basically been working all day.. maybe ill go for a run later!  just chatting it up on msn.. IM SO PROUD of the preefs .. they workde so hard and we're all so tired but i think it paid off AND yayyy the video was awwwwwwwwesome!!

god i was nervous as hell though for that prayers.. and im usu not nervous abotu speaking.. it was so weird!!

anywho im gonna go back to talking to janice because.. thats what im doing

agassi won.. i love him

bye bye xox

oopsie i guess i never finished my summer entry.. ill do it later im not in the mood now

im so sad... i m too greedy i want to have it all, but i can't have it all and i know that... i always put myself in stupid situations and now im in a little rut...

lifes busy as hell again and school hasnt even started... i wish i could lay low but that just doesnt seem to work out for me.. i have 2 speeches to write.. a 3rd in a few weeks time.. i had to be at school today and on tuesday all day and night and wednesday day and night..

someone smart says that its okay to let some balls drop because they ll always come bouncing back... i hope thats true.. i just want these next 2 months to be over- now. 

im scared shitless... people seem to think i can do it, my parents are freeeaking.. that doesnt help.. theyre mad at my brother.. but im the one whose home to hear about it... yeah

anyways im tired and im going to wallow.. its the first time in 6 years i feel so outta the loop... i hate letting go and i dont want to and i dont care if i sound like a baby saying that

bye